This is from a friend I had been sharing some of my writing with. It begins with what he said and then I give my response.
I was reading your docs and the one line just jumped out at me:
I've always seen myself as THE PROBLEM
I do this exercise every time this thought is there (and many other thoughts about 'my self')
Ask yourself who sees yourself as the problem? And simply, who sees yourself? And even more simply, who sees?
Who thinks? Who feels? Who senses? Etc.
Who is?
That is the ground of your being, who you really are. Now, look around, what do you have? Arms, legs (or not, for some folks), eyes, a heart, house, car. What is the purpose of those things? To help who you really are express your love in the world. The world itself is here for you to express yourself. And for our real selves to play together, using all the form there is around us.
This is from a friend I had been sharing some of my writing with. It begins with what he said and then I give my response.
This sounds like a great exercise. Doing it repeatedly could help release the cultural programming that the individual is the problem. Sometimes it takes a lot of work simply to reach the point of realizing the thought is there: I'm the problem.
At least for me, many of these belief patterns have been so deep and so complex and intertwined, that it has taken years and years of conscious effort to uncover them. In the intervening time, it seemed like a ball of emotions to which my response was crying whenever it was touched. It has taken endless patience to unravel the intertwined pieces!!
And then, even when the various pieces come clear, it has often taken years of work to release them!! Take for example, all this around Nick. On a conscious level I have known since the very beginning that what happened was the way it was suppose to happen and I didn't need to forgive myself for doing something wrong. Yet it has taken me 14 years of work to release those deepest levels (from how many lifetimes of programming?) of guilt that I did do something wrong.
I guess maybe this could be a helpful way to look at it: It's no wonder these patterns take time to release, because that is exactly what they are - many lifetimes of programming that have accumulated, and require lots of awareness to release completely. And I'm helping to release them for humanity as well as myself.
That's why Moses took the people out to live in the desert for 40 years. It took all that time to work on releasing the energetic patterning of slave programming, so they could come to take responsibility for making personal choices and working in the arena of personal responsibility.
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